mad conductors

co-created with Stephanie Heit

Mad Conductors is a collaborative performance project that arises out of a desire to transmute and transform personal experiences of electroshocks and psychiatric medication brain zaps. Through performance, we explore electricity, shock, connection, memory (loss), and collective mad ways of being.

what is your personal relationship with electricity?

charred

metal teeth

A black and white scan of a newspaper article showing Jack Nicholson and Milos Forman on the set of One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest. The article is titled 'Cuckoo' allegory.

open mouth

sharp tickle

spider legs

A sketchbook image from Alexis' brainstorming. Mossy rocks with faces—ancestors, appear in a spiral pattern.

write on my hand

email myself

smell a box of crayons

play a song

Ashwini Bhasi, Slade Billew, Beth Currans, and Sarah Park Dean create a memory score during a Mad Conductors workshop. Photo courtesy Stephanie Heit/Turtle Disco.

sift through medical records

seventh grade

where I put the remote

if I told you this already

A looping video og a

A page from Alexis' brainstorming. Red, purple, and yellow pigments appear blotted on a page. Electric blue lines meander through the page over cursive writing that is not quite legible.

what have you forgotten?

how do you remember?


Stephanie Heit

co-director

Production Notes

Mad Conductors events happen in community settings, universities, nature, and especially with people with lived mad experiences. We lead workshops. We give conference presentations. We offer participatory performances. Most importantly, we hold small two or three person gatherings, making house visits or meeting for brunch, meeting in mad fellowship. Together, we work to create supportive spaces to tend to ourselves and each other while we imagine and experiment with new openings, pathways, and futures of care.

Previous Mad Conductors venues include the University of Michigan (Ann Arbor, MI), National Dance Education Organization (Virtual), RiversideArts Center (Ypsilanti, MI), The Center for Mad Culture (Chicago, IL), and Turtle Disco (Ypsilanti, MI).

Stephanie Heit (she/her) is a queer disabled poet, dancer, teacher, and codirector of Turtle Disco, a somatic writing space on Anishinaabe territory in Ypsilanti, Michigan. She is a shock/psych system survivor, bipolar, and a member of the Olimpias, an international disability performance collective. Her award-winning book of hybrid memoir poems, PSYCH MURDERS (Wayne State University Press, 2022), invites readers inside psychiatric wards and shock treatments toward new futures of care. Website: https://stephanie-heit.com

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